Post by loonwitch on Nov 4, 2015 14:06:00 GMT -5
Well Met Fellow Seekers,
I am sitting here at my desk in Corporate America and having a tough day. So I am reaching out to the community for a bit of support.
On May 1, 2015 the woman who was my Mother-In-Law from my 2nd marriage passed away after a long illness. I was not given the information until 2 weeks after her death. But, she and I didn't always see eye to eye, and since we had not been in contact with each other in MANY years, I did grieve and mourn for her - but more for her children who had a complex relationship with her that was at times emotionally distressing. And I
hope that they have all found the peace that they need.
On Sept 6, 2015; the woman who was my Mother-In-Law from my 1st marriage, my friend, and my son's Nana passed away after a long illness. I was a part of her life whether her son and I were together or not, and she was a lovely person who put her family above all. She never judged anyone for their choices. And she worried about everyone. I am sure that there are complexities to the relationships that she had with her children, but you could feel the love and compassion in that family. I am a bit take aback by how much I miss her every day. And I grieve for her. I carry her in my heart and it gives me both profound joy and sadness.
This morning I learned that the woman who was my Father-In-Law's girlfriend for over 20 years died very suddenly. Though I never really thought of her as a mother in law, she is only 9 years older than I am, and I never really thought of her as a friend; we had nothing in common to chat about and had very little reason to spend time together... I am profoundly disturbed by this loss. I realized in some weird way today that the only mother figure remaining in my life is the one that gave birth to me - and we are still close, and she is in very good health. (knock on wood) she has a long time yet to walk this earth.
But I just don't know what to make of all the dying. At 47 years old, I have reached the age where I am surrounded by death - co-workers parents, my own in-laws, same age people with long term illness, and the more shocking is the death of all the young people who are dying from overdoses and other forms of violence. Is death and dying the new normal part of my reality?
Samhain is just passed, the time of the dead; we are now officially in the dark times of the year when those who are wandering find their peace and rest. I want to let these souls all go to their resting place, to their rightful place.
I wish them all peace and healing; love and light.
Thank you all for allowing me to ramble. 
